Why, why, why?

 Why, Why, Why?

Why, Why?

Why are you. never here?

Physically yes, but emotionally no.

Why, why, why?

Why, Why?

Why no affection?

I just want a hug, but none comes.

Why, why, why?

Why, Why?

Why are you so aloof?

You are there, but cannot be reached.

Why, Why, Why?

Why, Why?

Why do you keep me at arms length?

I watch, but you never teach me.

Why, why, why?

Why, why?

Why do you never reach out to me?

You are like a ghost to be seen, but not touched.

Why, Why, Why?

Why, why?

Why do my feelings get ignored?

I want you here, but you can never be.

Why, why, why?

Never There

Where are you?

I am little and alone

You are there, but not.

I want you here.

You remain aloof.

I am lonely.

You are never there.

I grow up feeling bad.

You are satisfied.

 

Light

 Light is there.

Often I choose focus on the blackness instead.

I sink into holes then.

Holes without light.

That is what I tell myself.

However, light is there.

I just have to look outward.

Outward to see the light.

Light that is hope.

Light that is warmth.

Light that is always there.

Focus on them three.

For they are all parts of the light.

I love you.

But I have never told you that.

Nor have I ever kissed you.

 My head resting on your chest.

My left ear hearing your heartbeat.

Been so hurt in my past.

Afraid to move on.

Yet feeling wanting to be naked with you.

Our bodies joined together.

Wrapping my body around yours.

Feel a squeeze.

My head raises.

There is my Adonis

Smile back at him.

Being teased to kiss him.

Touching our lips together.

We kiss.

Not stopping until we both are relaxed.

Lying next to each other skin to skin.

Smiling at him.

Then my heart says 'I love you.'

 

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Forward

 Go for it!

No, do not.

Yes do it?

No, I am scared.

It's ok to feel scared.

Hold back.

No, I will not!

Do not move forward.

I will move forward.

Please do not.

No, my choice it to move forward!

Feel the fear.

The fear will empower me to move forward.

Please.

I am scared, but advancing.

Help me, please?

I will; here is my hand.

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Together

 Breathing slows down to normal.

Reflection sets in as I look at his face.

'I did not plan on this.'

From his expression and nod,

 neither did he.

' I do not know what happened.

My emotions got the best of me'

'Me too' he says quietly.

'What if I...'

He puts a finger on my lips.

 I listen to him.

'Thank you for saying that.'

Welcome is his reply.

I  do not feel so alone now.

We are in this together.

We get dressed and go for walk,

enjoying the day together.

Letting the future take care of itself.

 

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Finding Happiness

 You have controlled me for so long,

for too long.,

 At last I am breaking the bonds,

that you have wrapped me in.

You are scared and that's ok,

for I am more than you.

I am not sure who I am exactly,

but I will find out.

I will be me,

all the good and not so good parts.

I will embrace them them all 

and find happiness.

You can walk my path with me,

or without me.

The choice is yours to decide,

 but do not take too long.

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