Towards the Light

Out, out of the tunnel
and in the light.

It feels strange
not being in the dark.

The darkness was my security;
its hopelessness was my friend.

But as friends go,
it was fickle.

It wanted what it wanted,
and gave nothing back really.

Like an energy-vampire, it drained me,
and then complained there was nothing left.

However, no matter how dark it was
I believed there was light ahead.

So onward my legs went.
Sometimes slow; sometimes fast.

They went forward in the direction
of the light to the end of the darkness.

My fickle friend was scared,
and its fear scared me.

Yet neither its fear
nor my fear stopped me.

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Reality?

Things are not the same,
yet they are.

Sometimes dizziness is sanity -
spin around and around.

Pull inward.
Pull outward.

Focus on reality,
but what is reality.

Reality as it was
is not reality as it is.

To be happy in reality,
hope must exist inside of it.

Hope springs eternal,
so how deep is its well?

Sameness, diziness, in and out,
Focus reality, and hope.

They exist at the same time -
inside, competing, fighting, and directionless.

Direction, which way?
Just go, it does not matter.

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Risk

Alone, yet not.
People around me, yet no one to talk to.
Isolated in a box that no one can see
nor I know how to open.

Silent screams echo in my head,
reverberating constantly.
No one hears them; not even I.

Starting anew this is to expected.
The old life was safe and secure,
but it was a dead end.

Risk taking is hard and not always rewarding;
however, without risk, life is boring and dull.
Riskless life becomes an ever darkening black.

Because of a change, new doors open,
and old ones close.
At times, the old ones may be wished upon;
nevertheless, they are better off closed.

A whiteness appears as new doors open
and excitement and joy live again.
Wonderment over what will come,
and what will be.

For new doors are best opened slowly
and the newness appreciated,
so the past can be remembered
while risks are taken.

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Why?

You always follow me.

Why?

You haunt my dreams.

Why?

You scare me.

Why? Why? Why?

Do you do them to me?

Why do I want you
and embrace you?

Why do I want to have you
envelope me?

Why will I do anything for you
for your deadly loving embrace?

It is because I love you.

Why?

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Good Friend

Went out of town today.

Took 2 hours by train.

Had dinner and a movie.

Was nice and relaxing.

Then two hours back.

So happy to go out of town,

and spend time with friend

who lives 200 meters from me.

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Right for you

Life for you has now become a mixture of moving on and grieving.

Every day will be different:

on how much you need to move on,

and on how much you need to grieve.

On some days the former will be more important,

and on other days the latter will be more important.

Just grieve and move on in amounts – big and small

that are right for you - for you and your kids.

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Respect

I get it from my friends who I dearly love.

I get it from colleagues who I work with.

I get it from the small store owners where I shop.

I get it from the staff where I work.

I get it from strangers who I help.

I get it from the lower level management where I work

I get it from strangers who help me.

So why cannot I get from the higher management where I work?

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